Her heart was like a secret garden, and the walls were getting higher

“Sometimes what we learn and who we become in the process of waiting is even more important than what we’re waiting for.”

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I’m going to get a little personal in this blog post, because occasionally a picture that I take is reflective of the mood that I am in.   I was sitting there last evening on this pose and realized it fit the inner struggles I was having.  I won’t get into the reasons for it, other than there are changes occurring in my life that are taking me out of my comfort zone and are leaving me in a period of uncertainty at the moment.  I won’t bemoan the changes… as I know that in a few years I will probably be seeing them as a blessing rather than what they seem to be now.

There is definitely some truth to the following… “there comes a point in your life when you realize what and who matters, what and who never did, what and who won’t anymore, and what and who always will.” In the end you learn what and who was fake or true.

Though luckily I was also able to use the time I was sitting there contemplating constructively by wearing some stuff that is available at the Trick or Treat event that opens in a few hours.

Specifically, referring to the skin I’m using by Zoul Creations and the socks by FDD, which are available in different colors.

Credits:
*Skin – Zoul Creations – Becca Fairy @ Trick or Treat
Hair – Mina – Yenna
Top – Villena – Denim Shirt Classic
*Socks – FDD – Socks Maitreya Fitted @ Trick or Treat

Scene:
Juniper Garden Table & Chairs – Vespertine
Summer Picnic . Deli Sandwiches – Dust Bunny .
Elderflower Cordial – Apple Fall dust bunny
Some Snail Mail – Pixelwear
Stack of Mail Prop (part of a post) –  {what next}
Assorted Mail – Sari-Sari
Woodland Weed – Two Moon Gardens
Nanohana – *alirium*

I got you covered.

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The theme for this round of The Secret Affair was end of times where you could find a lot of apocalyptic items, which seems to be a popular theme here in Second Life.  [MeshedUp] made a helmet and mask for this round.  You can also find all sort of other role-play items as well at the event.  My outfit is not necessarily indicative for end times… more or less I just started to throw things on using items from recent events.

Credits:
Hair – [Entwined] – Nora @ The Secret Affair
*Helmet – [MeshedUp] – End Times Helmet Black @ The Secret Affair
*Mask – [MeshedUp] – End Times Mask Black @ The Secret Affair
Face Tattoo – Arise – Boda Facepaint Black Cyan
Collar – Khyle Sion – Corvia Collar @ We ❤ Role-Play
Dress – FDD – Endless Tunic Black @ The Secret Affair
Belt – Wimey – Sienia Belt Black @ We ❤ Role-Play
Armpads – Eudora 3D – StormWind Arm Pads Black {Feb. 2015 Fantasy Gacha Carnival}
Holster – Obscure – Assasins Holster (Colt) Black
Knife – Axix – [Fantasy] Savage Pose Set Prop
*Leg Tattoo – .Things. – Egeria Tattoo @ Skin Fair 2015
Boots – Yasum – The Thief Girl EPIC {Feb. 2015 Fantasy Gacha Carnival}

Scene:
Rocks & Cliff – Fanatik Architecture
Wild Flowers – [We’re ClOSED]

Pose:
Rogue Pose Set 2 by RACK Poses

I’m a bit squirrely.

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Only because I spent the good majority of my time in Second Life this evening resolving my issue of not being able to use shadows and was successful only to not even use the picture showing the shadows.   Maybe tomorrow.
To make a long story short. I updated my driver, which after some slight adjustments fixed the crashing problem when I enabled advanced lighting.  Though if it were that easy.  That in turn created a problem of mesh going invincible as a result of the AMD Catalyst 14.12 driver not rendering rigged mesh unless the hardware skinning is disabled.  Well doing that meant I couldn’t use advanced lighting and that means no shadows.  A little more researching the issue led me to Inara Pey’s blog, where it provided a workaround to this problem.   Basically copying some DLL files and placing them into your viewer folder and that ultimately solved the last problem.
I feel all sorts of accomplished now.
Credits:
Dress – Junbug – Helena Night
Crown – FDD – Aracelis Crown Silver Ultra @  Totally Top Shelf
Earrings – FDD – Aracelis Earrings Silver @ Totally Top Shelf
Necklace – FDD – Aracelis Necklace Silver Rare @ Totally Top Shelf
Chain Collar – Luas – Ashanti Chain Top Silver @ Countdown Room
Scene:
Squirrels on Tree Stump – United InshCon
Book Cage – The Loft @ Collabor88
Grasses – Happy Mood
Pose: Temptress Set by Ma Vie

Capturing a wild boar.

 

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Here lately I have been in a changeable mode.  Like last night I was just standing at my landing point and it struck me that I have spent more time on that spot than anywhere else inside or outside in any of the sitting spots throughout.  Within ten minutes I took down the house, furniture and all the landscaping.  Standing there in an almost empty flat land I was thinking what comes next and so I put down these woods to get some inspiration.   It didn’t ignite in me any ideas and quite frankly I’m thinking of just renting a space that gives you a small allowance of prim to use.  I have never gone homeless for very long and it makes me antsy not having a place to park myself or having somewhere to open purchases.  Maybe by the time my tier is up in a few days I’ll have decided on something.

I was wearing just the dress as I was still working through some of the items that I picked up at The Secret Affair event when it dawned on me to use the woods as the backdrop.  Combining items from several of the fantasy events and here I am ready to capture a wild boar.

Credits:
Hair – [Entwined] – Arya in Blacks @ The Secret Affair
Tattoo – NOX. – Tottem Shadow [Black] @ The Secret Affair
Tattoo – [theSkinnery] – Wisdom Eye Makeup 2 @ The Secret Affair
Tattoo – Yumi Chiuh – Dirty Face
Eyes – {Song} – Yuki ~ Aqua Eyes @ Kustom9
Staff – FDD – GS Harvest Staff *Rowan-Soul Reaper* Moon RARE @ The Secret Affair
Staff – FDD – GS Harvest Staff *Rowan-Soul Reaper* Moon v2 @ The Secret Affair
Dress – Pure Poison – Luana Dress Brown @ The Secret Affair
Armor – Valentina E. – Tya Shoulder Armour & Waist Belt Gold @ The Secret Affair
Stole – Valentina E. – Tya Shoulder Stole Mink @ The Secret Affair
Leggings – KOSH – Cotton Leggings
Leg Harness – [Haste] – Nsia Leg Harness Nude @ Fantasy Gacha Carnival
Arm Harness – [Haste] – Nsia Arms Nude @ Fantasy Gacha Carnival
Boots – May’s Soul – Ranger Boots @ The Fantasy Room

Pose: Paladin Gacha – RACK Poses @ Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Scene:
Enchanted Woods V2 – Skye Studio
Grass Field Green – We’re Closed
Boars – Hannah Kozlowski